"Backstory: I'm the most insecure person alive, so I broke up with my boyfriend of 3 years due to my insecurities. I felt horrible and ugly during that time.
Towards the last couple of months, we were arguing a bit, but nothing major. We were in the honeymoon period for 2 and a half years - no fights, just some normal arguments that we always managed to communicate through. We had a healthy relationship.
However, I made a mistake when I broke up with him because he is very sarcastic, and I took every joke he made about my body seriously. I hated myself for it. I broke up with him in May, and in June, I started using dating apps, which I didn't realize would hurt him so much. I loved the attention and felt attractive again, but I didn't do anything with anyone. Mid-June hit me hard, and I realized I didn't want to be with any of these men; I wanted him back. I couldn't believe how foolish I had been. During that time, he was deeply hurt. We got back together briefly, but one day he told me to leave his house; he didn't want me anymore. I begged and pleaded for months until September, trying my best to make amends, but he didn't want me back.
He told me he had moved on. I've been in agony ever since, knowing I hurt him when I left, but he's the love of my life. I made a terrible mistake, and now he's moved on. What hurts me the most is that he told me we had almost no issues, and the small problems we had could have been resolved through communication, but I left him. I don't know what to do. I'm trying to move on, but I can't. I truly believed he was the one.
- we never broke up before
- my friends, my sister and my brother don’t like him because he goes too far with jokes
