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Two days ago, I had a discussion with my girlfriend (initiated by me) about our plans and having kids. I was reconfirming to make sure we're on the same page and she's 100% sure about it. She reconfirmed she's ready. So now I know her answer will be a yes. That's all I needed to know.

My past rejection:

After 5 years of being together with my then first girlfriend (now ex girlfriend), she declined me. I was 22 at the time when I asked her the question and the answer was a no. I felt the same exact way women feel when their guy won't commit. I felt the exact pain those women feel. This might sound silly but after I got home, I cried for a bit in privacy. It was really hurtful.

The reason for the question on my post if because recently someone else on a site said that only women would have that reaction of crying and being sad over it, that if we get sad about that, we're acting like a girl and that she was right to decline his proposal. I felt the same hurt. But we can get hurt equally if it's the woman that won't process in the relationship, that declines a proposal right?