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So, this is probably a stupid question, and I think I know the answer, but I would like a woman's perspective on this. There's a model that I've interacted with a few times on Instagram who I've gotten along with quite well. There was an IG live thing that we did, talked and joked around for a little over an hour, had a few conversations besides that; it's been decent but not a ton of contact.

I want to delete my instagram account now, for personal reasons, but I'd like to stay in touch with the model, so I sent her a message stating as much. I sent the message about a day ago, and I've seen her post to her story since that time, but she hasn't even openned my DM. Naturally I'm kind of wondering if maybe her answer is that she doesn't want to stay in touch. I've also thought about the fact that what I'm asking of her is kind of a big deal and that she probably wants time to think things over. At least, I know that it would be a big deal to me, if I was in her position. The model and I live in different countries, so even if she stayed in touch with me, it's not like there's a ton of additional intimacy.

I'm just curious about what the feminine take is on this situation? How big of a deal is it for a man to ask a woman he's met online, to stay in touch? What would you do in her position?

My soul is crushed (and has been) for quite a while now. Back in 2020, I met a girl online who I thought was perfect. She never had a male friend before me, never had a boyfriend or first love, and she was a virgin. We really hit it off and talked almost daily. Sadly, when she met me in person, she rejected me.

Fast forwarding, she recently married a guy who got to be her first everything. I am sick to my stomach to this day thinking about it.

I want to find a woman just like who she was when we first met. I want a decently attractive woman without a romantic past. Do you think she is out there for me?