Oh no, my heart is broken, again. With this, how can I go forward? Why am I hurting so much?

[Anonymous]

I wanted fun, came from a 4 year long term relationship. The guy was fun, it wasn’t anything serious. We both are not great at communication. I thought he knew what to do and say. Things got a bit more serious between us when we began sexting in great detail. No good morning or goodnight no sincerity. All reckless fun. No we haven’t met yet. We started talking only 2 weeks ago. Saw he liked countless girls in bikinis online. Saw he is a sex addict and pervert. I don't know, I thought he liked me. Why does this hurt so much if we haven’t established what would hurt. Why do I feel like used and sad? Maybe it’s just me. I just want to feel special and happy but I’m only met with pain and confusion doubt grief. I don't know whose fault it is. Why did it hurt when he liked girl bikinis pic. Behind my back? Why can't I shake it off? I don’t even know him like that I just cry

[boggboss]

Because what u want and what u said u wanted clearly where different u can say u only wanted fun yet that can't be true if u expected some level of exclusiveness and him liking pics was enough to hurt you don't feel you are being honest with yourself

[Asker]

Just scared no one wants to heart committed relationship , especially after I came from a long term disaster. I been hurt before and now again. Yes I was not honest of course I want and need love. This is really sad. I’m so close to deleting him off everywhere no explanations. Might seem immature? But he’s already off my dating app since I deleted it. We only got Snapchat to talk now but I don’t want to. Not after watching him watch her…

[boggboss]

Yet he did nothing wrong because u told him u just wanted fun you lying was the issue not him clearly u are not the type of person to be able to do somthing casual so don't look for someone that wants somthing serious

[boggboss]

Yes if u decide to just ghost it does make u immature and a shitty person

[SlothySlob]

It sounds to me like you subconsciously decided that he is only yours and that it's official because you've interacted for 2 weeks.
I think you want something real even though you know it will never be.

[LazerBean]

Because you get emotionally attached to things you think about, including guys, and especially when sexual stuff is involved. So even though you never met you were entangled with him.

[Berethor]

Feminism had failed you, looking for only sex is something that guys do.

[maximumpower]

re-read your posting.
you said it wasn't anything serious.
that's obviously not true.
rewrite the situation and repost.
be honest if you want an honest answer.