My crush likes my sister and it's killing me?

Anonymous

No one has ever had a crush on me. I'm not that beautiful, I never was. Throughout my whole life I've been invisible, like I'm not really there. But my YOUNGER sister is the opposite, she is very beautiful, she looks like a model, very above average. And don't hit me with the "oh but you're sisters so you probably look alike" NO! Not at all, we don't look related.

I watch guys fall in love with her all the time, that's what I've pretty much done my whole life. Over 5 or 6 guys has liked her and she is 13. Not one has liked me and I am 15 (I am 14 months older than her) . First time a guy liked her she was maybe 4 or 5. I didn't think too much about it though and ignored it. It was the second time where it really hurt me. I was 7 or 8 and she was 6 maybe. We all had a friend that visited and I had a HUGE crush on him. He was the same age as me. I thought about him all the time, did everything in my power to make him like me and so on. Then I found out that he had a crush on my sister, and it really broke me. It hurt my heart so much and I was only 7 or 8.

Ever since then I've been obsessing over these kind of things, and only more guys kept on liking her.

We got another friend when she was 8 and I 9, he was OBSESSED with her and so nice, confessed to her and everything. I got really jealous and hurt again.

Then ANOTHER guy liked her, who was our friend. Same thing again.

And THEN when I was 13 another guy I had a really huge crush on liked my sister. Guys don't even look at me.

Right now I have a crush on this guy, but like always, he has a crush on my sister. He told me that he liked her.

I always catch him staring at her.

I feel so hopeless and disgusting, invisible. Literally no one has liked me, trust me I would know. I can tell when someone likes someone.

I just get my heart broken over and over and over again and I feel like killing myself. She's so beautiful and I look like a goblin.

My crush likes my sister and it's killing me?
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