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So, the story with my recent crush is that we have barely ever talked despite being classmates for 3 years. Our class interacts a lot in general, but his group's girls are more open to me than his group's guys. The girls are enthusiastic, the guys are too shy to mutter even a hi. They say hi to the whole class though.

And my crush is the tallest in class, I'm amongst the shortest girls, so people keep calling me "kid" jokingly. He has been my first ever crush in college (I liked his personality when he used to interact during online classes, his face wasn't clear there tho). I had a major crush on someone else tho, and I'm trying to get over that guy and this recent one keeps popping up again and again because ig I never got him outta my head anyway.

We went on an industrial visit and during the whole trip he kept stealing glances at me. I admit I looked cuter than most days ig, cause even girls who I rarely talk to in class said I looked cute. So I was happie. And he kept noticing. He even gave me an ice cream that day, despite my friends also standing there. He was generally going around giving icecreams too but in my grp, it was only me who he gave it to (our prof was paying for those). It was a cute thing idky.

And some days later, while I was sort of in his direct view while studying something from the teacher, I caught his eye when he was looking at me. It was a blissful sight. I noticed his brown eyes and kinda got nervous and left to drink water and didn't even look up in that direction again when I came back to my place. It was a beautiful feeling still tho.

I wish he would have the same feelings as me. I don't want to confess because we have barely ever talked. I just like his sincereness and his overall personality. It is not love tho, just a crush. And he now rarely watches my IG stories even tho he used to watch all of them earlier.

P. S. the worst part is that we just have like 10 days left in college. We will be never seeing each other again:(

I am no where in the position of being in a situation where I get the joy of picking out rings. However ever since my brush with death in my dual truck accident I been reconsidering life. The things I've done and what I want. I also have been plagued with pain nightmares and mini nervous breakdown or panic attacks.

During a recent panic I pulled my car over to relax. I looked up and it happened to be in front of a mall I had bought my engagement ring. Feeling nostalgic needing to relax I went in to the store. There were many memories which washed over me. Good and bad.

I stopped at the ring styles I always wanted. During my first engagement He would have bought it for me had I asked but I didn't dare to. He even implied "that's the one you want isn't it"

I horrifyingly shook my head no in shock. A lie yes but I was very apprehensive at the idea of asking for something so costly with not contributing anything to it. It would have eaten at my conscience. We picked a set which ran significantly less.

Staring at the certain rings I realized I still want what those rings stands for... A forever and happily ever after. A partner whos my equal. I want someone who we balance each others and equally contribute to one anothers needs.

I also realized I'm not the same girl as then. I'm wiser at putting cash a side and I'm more confident. This time I can turn to a man I love and confidently say to him that's the one I want and I'll help pay for it.

My previous husband would have been offended by this. Though he was much older than me and from a different custom.

Do people considered it rude to A pick out one's own ring?

B would it be rude to offer to help pay especially because their requesting a certain ring which may run a bit steep?

As for me I've made up my mind lol that's the ring I want... I don't have the man to go with it yet but I'm hoping to find him! 🤣... And he doesn't have to worry I'll buy it if he can't afford it and then his as well!