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I am visiting my family for the Christmas holiday. I have a cousin who is younger than me and has 3 kids and is married. Her eldest child I believe is already in Kindergarten!

I am 28 years old and I believe I am still relatively young. Although, seeing most of my former friends and those my age with kids that are growing, it makes me feel incredibly old!

I can understand maybe not having kids right now, but sadly, I have never even been in a real relationship. I never had my first real girlfriend! I seek a woman without a romantic past where we can be each other's first real relationship. I seek a woman that has never had her first love. I may never find that and may grow to be that lonely old man that I fear to become.

I ruined a good opportunity several years ago with a woman who could of been my wife. I didn’t cheat but I didn’t appreciate and reciprocate the love/respect she gave me. It was a complicated situation but I failed to communicate effectively. I owned up to being in the wrong when she broke up with me.

But it’s almost been 10 years now and I have had other gfs and flings. Nothing has come close to what I once had with this woman. No one understood me like she did.

However I’ve seen plenty of other shitty women I’ve past known manage to successfully get married and have kids. Who knows if their husbands are their dream men but something must of worked for them to settle down. But it doesn’t seem like men get as many second chances as women do when we screw up a good opportunity.

It was the only time in my entire life I made a mistake like that. She actually did something to deeply hurt me after ever split. That’s a whole another story but bad karma does exist I already got it back seven fold and got it back hard.

But why I do feel like I have had bad lingering karma ever since? Or is it that men in general have fewer options?

They only love you because you can provide for the family.
A man is a bank💰

I used to think relationships were about love. I can make money no problem. But there’s no love. I should just stay single.

I’m definitely not getting married. No woman will touch my money