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I start off simple. I’m pretty easy to get but hard to keep/satisfy. I’m pretty routine and when things start to change, I try to get it back to the way things were, otherwise, I’m ready to bounce. Like I start to feel trapped. Then i check out mentally/emotionally but rarely physically. At certain points in the relationship, I just begin self sabotaging as my way of escaping. Its just a bad habit, especially since I struggle with letting go and leaving on my own. I rather be released even if it makes me look like the sucker. In the end, it was all apart of the plan… But I hate wasting my time (and in some way theirs as well) but at the same time it makes me feel less guilty and less of the villain if i’m released versus just voluntarily leaving. I know its some sort of commitment issue but is what it is. #FeelFreeToList

Can someone please give me advice. I matched with a guy on a dating app and we are in two different countries. We have stated that we are exclusively getting to know each other and to let the other person knows if that changes. I made us take the attachment test and we found out that he’s secure and I’m anxious. Because of the time differences we aren’t able to speak for that long however during the day we don’t have that much communication (which is bothering me). They message me in the morning and I message them back and I don’t hear from them until 11pm their time, which is when they are about to go to sleep. I’ve mentioned that I don’t like their communication style and they say they’ll work on it but it’s gotten worse tbh. I know they are busy and have a lot on their plate, so I’m trying to be understanding but it’s getting to me. I like is it a me issue or we just aren’t compatible. How am i suppose to get to know someone if we aren’t in communication… I don't know or am I being childish? I’ve always been huge on communication but I’m like is it bc I truly care about it or is it my attachment style playing a part in it. Also, we’ve only known each other for 3 months so it’s fairly new. Am I putting too much expectation on it? I don’t want to keep bringing it up because I have like 4 times. Should I end it because of communication issue. I do like him, his morals etc, there are something I don’t agree with him (which I think is normal bc it’s not everything you’ll agree with someone on) & I’d like to continue knowing him but I don’t know if I should. Someone please advise & thank you.