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So Im in my freshman year of college and I met this guy who i befriended with that we also hungout everyday whether alone or with friends. So, within the three months of fall semester, him and I got really close. Im not one who likes when people invade my space or touch me but I was comfortable with him. We always would talk in groups about how we're both not ready to date and how the timing for dating people is important. Basically during these we were ignoring how each of us felt or possibly felt. I often made the mistake of starting the conversation because that was how i truly felt at the time so i would forget that he could possibly like me and he would just agree.

So we were friends, he would hold my hand as a joke and laugh but eventually it stopped being like a joke and he just held it and he would often brush my hair back behind my ear and always like to be near and subtlety touch me or always felt the need to be in my space. There was a time where we were waiting for our friend since she had a late class in the evening so him and i sat on the bench and talked for a bit and when i looked over to him he was giving me these eyes and leaned in for a kiss and i was stunned but then my friend walked and saw us asking what we were doing.

A month later i saw on his snapchat story that a bee was flying around him and I replied to his story saying, "They love you." and then he proceeded to respond saying that he loved me. This is my first time ever being told I love you so i pretended i didn't see it and talked about something else. I was scared that he was just joking around again. The whole time this situationship was happening I was unsure of how I felt about him since he definitely didn't fit my boyfriend standards since he was quite selfish and immature which is the complete opposite of what I look for in a man. I dont talk to him anymore since we got into an argument, he told me he loved me but left when things got bad, is it possible he liked me that way?

We got back together after a year apart. We slept together the first night then the second night I tried for sex and he said no.

He’d been seeing someone he wasn’t in a relationship with and told her it never would be before we got back together. I don’t know how soon before he slept with her anywhere from a day before to two weeks before.

When we got back together he instantly said he loved me and wanted me and him back together for good.
But then he rejected me the following day. We did speak before we slept together saying that we aren’t bothered about sex id rather sleep etc. then the following day when I tried he said im not in the mood we said this the other day that’s how we are.

But a couple of weeks/month into us and he said he wants it twice a day. He’s always been like this and has a really high sex drive. He was more or less like that with me before we broke up and got back together. We did have sex often and multiple times a night.

So why did he turn me down that night? Was it to do with the other girl? It wasn’t as good? Or do guys not work like that?
But then why would he after a few weeks/month want it twice a day and complain to his friends I don’t give him sex enough. It changed and I’ve started rejecting him

Was he trying to control me turning me down the second night since before we had sex loads? Making sure I knew my place?

Or was it about the other girl? I don’t know how often they seen each other. I just know the set up was only seeing each other. He made it clear there was no relationship but she was saying she was in love and he was saying it wasn’t like that on his side. Maybe he went every night to hers? I have no idea but I know they could have seen each other as little as the day before me and him to 2 weeks before