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I've been thinking, and I've come along a train of thought which holds not wanting to ask for help as a culprit for a ton of issues I've faced in the past.

As a guy, there is a desire to not rely on others for help and to handle things alone, but this is a dangerous idea as it encouraged me to step outside my lane out of a desire to prove I can handle it.

This is a huge barrier to progress as a desire to handle things alone doesn't mean I will succeed, it just means I need to step back and humble up, ask the right questions, have an experienced person handy, and then maybe.

But this "I gotta do it alone", that needs to stop. While I don't intend to rely on others, I do intend to educate myself more, explore my natural skillsets while gaining new ones, and knowing my place.

One instance where I felt ashamed to accept help was last year when I was hospitalized for a serious lung infection which came as a result of my alcohol problems leading to being taken off Trikafta, a medication for my Cystic Fibrosis which has done nothing less than give me a new life.

Now alcohol is gone, Trikafta is back, coughing and labored breathing are gone, too. But in the hospital, I recieved IV antibiotics, but the IV machine kept on stopping.

Not wanting to keep bothering nurses when all I needed was the IV machine to go back to working, I asked one nurse how to fix it, so I wouldn't be such a burden on the staff.

She giggled and playfully hit me with a newspaper, she was right, those liberties aren't mine to take, the whole reason I was sick, at all, is because I was an irresponsible mess who drank more rum than Jack Sparrow.

This issue was fixed by a PICC line being inserted in me, which I used to finish my rounds of antibiotics and from there, I changed my life but I still feel ashamed to keep hitting the call button when I just needed the machine to work again.

Have you felt ashamed to ask for, or accept assistance from others?

I thought about this closely:

Do you have a feeling all this chaos is strategically facilitated? The leftist PM in the UK wants to make the rural countryside "less white". You don't believe leftist politicians in the US want to do the same? Think again!

Foreign nationals from broken nations flooded our country during the Xiden regime. Many of these people from broken nations are not accustomed to westernized societies, in fact, to them, getting handouts in the US is better than what they had back home.

Their standard of living is much lower than ours. Of course, if you saturate our population with people who have had a lower standard of living, you in turn create a lower standard of living.

Think of a white, upper-middle-class family. The children have likely been raised to understand they need to be financially stable before having a child. Those who have grown up in the ghettos are used to popping out kids with the expectation they can collect welfare benefits.

Bad actors know this, so you know what they do? They crash the job market and economy, making white couples reconsider having children while the ghetto folk and foreign nationals pop out babies.

Birth tourism also exists, where women from China travel to the US, birth a child on our soil that it is a US citizen, return to China to raise the child, then once the child turns 18, he/she can vote in US elections. This is why we are trying to restrict birthright citizenship so scenarios like these don't occur.

These are tactics for control and manipulation. When you cause so much disruption and chaos, this prevents people from being able to mobilize to fight back.

Meanwhile, the left attempts to brainwash and distract you from real problems, like a collapse of our fire and emergency services. When your public safety infrastructure collapses, this hinders emergency response efforts and increases casualty.