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There’s this girl who I fell for about a year and half ago. I might be an idiot but she’s the most smart, funny, kind, and loving person I’ve ever met. We both had a dark moment in our life when we met and we grew so close together that we messaged each other so much like good morning and goodnight and knew each other so well. One day I wanted to ask her if we can become more then friends, she said no because of cultural differences but it’s different than you might imagine.. I also screwed up and I said “quit playin games with me” and I still to this day can’t forgive myself for that. fast forwarding about 5-7 months later we grew even closer, I tried again. I found out she was talking to someone else. I’m not the type of person who will never let a girl talk to other people, everyone has their own choices. I was definitely hurt and we stopped talking to each other for 5 months. 5 months pass by she messaged me saying : I missed you and you probably hate me. I replied back with I don’t hate anyone, I don’t hold grudges. I asked why she decided to message me after all this time, she said because she misses me. I honestly miss her too 🥺 but I can’t do another “friend zone” with her because she is the most perfect person in my eyes. But she can only offer a friendship. Should I move on, I’d hate to lose this person truthfully. But I don’t want to be depressed again when I fall in love with her again with her beautiful personality.

I am 29 and never had a real girlfriend. I am extremely heartbroken because all my life I have always wanted a girlfriend. I have always wanted a woman whom I can be affectionate and intimate with.

As I watch my peers get married, I just feel very late. Me and a woman can never say we knew each other when we were young. There is so much missed time. I am grown now and approaching my 30s. It just doesn't feel the same.

Meanwhile, I feel like I would be giving my heart to a woman who has loved someone when she was young and got to experience her youth with someone else. Something that I can never say we get to experience. On top of that, I have to deal with the fact she has loved other boys and men before me and made love to them before. I will be some subsequent lover that if she ever lost me, it wouldn't be anything new to her and there is no sweat off her back. It just doesn't seem fair at all.

I am starting to get too old for much younger women. I am starting to become unattractive to 18, 19, and early 20s women due to my age. I feel I am left with women that have too much baggage, and before long, I will be lucky to even find a woman that has never been divorced or has kids from a previous marriage.