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I'm asking this question for my job coach. He overheard my crush saying she wasn't trying to "reject" me.

Today I found out verbally that this week will be my crush's last week working at the thrift store that I volunteer at. She (19) is a few years younger than me (22). My job coach (33) is much older than me, but they seem to get along slightly better - just slightly.

For the "longest" time (I'd say about a month or two) I hadn't opened myself up to the girl I approached. Despite her being younger than me, she was actually in charge of the site where I was helping with donations and stocking clothes separately by gender/age (men's, women's, kids') and type (tops, bottoms).

Once I heard from her that she was quitting, I asked her where she thinks she's considering moving to as far as career goes, and she said she's moving for school. I prompted that she didn't mind me asking, could I have her number. She said no, I apologized by saying sorry but she told me not to be sorry since it's work and she has to keep it all work-related, even after I said I just wanted to make a friend.

THAT was when my job coach started hearing the "reject" part from the girl's mouth. To be fair, my job coach even told me that when he and she first started talking it seemed a bit off. The girl was supposed to just be a temporary employee.

My job coach thought that I was making the girl feel uncomfortable and the disability program I belong in has guidelines regarding communications/appropriate talk with the opposite sex. I've literally seen job coaches flirt with each other in the program and people didn't seem to think it was a big deal.

The girl and the male job coach both are white people of European ethnicity. I am ethnically Arab and Armenian.

The rules exist because of the monetary rewards system and the points get downgraded if misbehaviors and even flaws are pointed out by the job coaches. Men with disabilities are almost treated like children in many cases.

I am waiting to find a woman without a romantic past that has never had her first love. I am almost 28 and never had a real girlfriend.

I haven't touched a girl in over 7 years since my 2-day weekend fling with a 16 year old girl when I was 20. I feel if I start having lots of sex, then I will be less desirable for a woman without a romantic past and a hypocrite.