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28F, I’ve been single for 5 years. I dated someone briefly for a few months when I was 23 & I felt like I was settling with him which is why I’m glad things ended. He knew he was the first guy I steadily saw but wasn’t romantic with me, he knew what I expected on Valentine’s Day (the cliche stuff). Instead he takes us out to dinner & while he did take pay for most things/paid to take me on a cruise for his bday vacation I just felt like he wasn’t into me enough. That’s one example but he was too eager to have sex (wasn’t willing to wait for marriage) & that was another turn off. I’ve been single since bc I’d rather be alone vs feel I’m with someone mediocre. I am convinced I’m going to end up alone considering no one better has come around since

I was 16 weeks into my pregnancy when I decided I didn't want to have a baby. I know I should've thought it through before having unprotected sex, but I thought a little too late. I didn't want to drag an innocent soul into a world where I couldn't give it all it needed/wanted. I thought about putting it up for adoption, but possibly not knowing the home it would end up in worried me. That's when I turned to the only option that was somewhat comforting; abortion.

Without telling a soul, including the father, I went to the doctors and was soon prescribed abortion pills. I took them like so, and I was no longer pregnant.

A few days later, my boyfriend came to see me, in which I really didn't want him to, but this was something I couldn't hide from him forever. I knew he was excited to be a father. It was one of the first things he talked about when we started dating. Now, as you'd expect, he was severely upset and now he doesn't want to talk to me at all. The last time I heard from him was 2 weeks ago, and the last thing he told me was that I was irresponsible, that I'm a liar, that he hated me.

I feel as if what I did was wrong, and I think that I should just stay away from him, but I don't want us to end on such bad terms. I don't know if I can say anything that would trigger his forgiveness.