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I’ve been living with my fiancé and his grandma for about 7 months now. Lately she has been getting even sicker (she’s on oxygen 24/7) so that also contributes to her having some breathing issues as well. It’s been a few days since she’s been back home from the hospital since her last visit not too long ago. Everything has been turned upside down!

No drama but everything is about her. I work full time M-F get home at 6pm so majority of my time is there since he doesn’t work but get $ monthly. She was already dependent on him but now it’s worse! He has to feed her, and walk her to the bathroom, clean up after her and clean the house all the time.

NYE was the first time in days we’ve spent more than 1 hr together.. IN THE SAME DAMN HOUSE!!! I’ve been asking him for months for dates, more than 2hrs of quality time, to get away from the house since his grandma is home ALLL the time!! We have no privacy and no peace and quiet at all cause he’s always chasing after her. Anytime we leave the house together it’s pretty much for her benefit not for a good time.

I don’t want to sound selfish but I’ve been helping him before her health declined but it makes me not want to help since there hasn’t been any balance in our relationship. It’s all about her and did I forget to add we’ve only slept in the same bed 5 times the whole 7 months I’ve been here.
I explain to him I want things to change that I want to go out and do things but I get an okay and nothing changes.

We had plans to spend the night at a hotel for NYE but had to cancel cause she need him on the hour by the hour 🙄. Our sex is always good but I’m checked out because if you can find time to have sex with me you can set aside more than an hour of your time!

We had a pregnancy scare but I’m thankful I’m not pregnant because I’d honestly leave this house. Myself nor my baby will sit there and be on the back burner. Not for no no one!!

!!! please no judgement!!

So I have this cute hair accessoire which would fit perfectly for my dress I plan to wear tomorrow. Of course I forgot it at home while we are at my parents for Christmas.
Any ideas to improvise an alternative? I thought about these ribbons to decorate presents but while it could look ok, the fact that everyone knows it's normally used for presents could make it weird. At least that's what I feel.
Of course just not wearing anything like that is an option as well. I am just mad at myself for leaving it at home and would prefer to have something as a replacement. 😩

No time for shopping but my mom has like a metric ton of these present decorations, that's why I thought about it.

Again, not meant to be taken seriously. But after my latest take about exes/zodiacs, I’m trying to see something here. I was probably the most physically hurt by a Capricorn and Aries. However, emotionally, I have noticed the heartbreakers tend to end up being the air signs AQUARIUS, GEMINI, LIBRA, and also CANCER and SAGITTARIUS. Anyone else experience this? If you’re not sure of the person’s zodiac sign, tell me their birth month or google it.

My experience-

-Cancers usually have the looks and personality. They could truly be the whole package if they allowed themselves to be. But they seem to fear commitment and I don't know why because they don’t seem like the cheating type. Maybe they just fear getting hurt so they hurt you first.

-Sagittarius will show you in so many ways that they want you. But the problem is they never only want you. You tend to be just one of the people they are after. And if you confront them about it, they will go to the lowest of lows and say the meanest things (or simply shun/ignore/avoid you) just to get out of looking like a player.

-Gemini will be all for you. But they let their insecurities get the best of them. So once you’re ready to give things a go, then suddenly they forgot they wanted to be more than friends.

-Libras are hard to understand. Just like Gemini they are all for you. Just like Sagittarius they show you they want you. Just like Cancer they have the looks and personality. But one day they’re just suddenly not interested for long. I think they miss flirting with others too much and just choose not to commit for the timebeing.

-Aquarius only want company from certain people at certain times. One minute they’re interested and the next they forget to show they still care. They want to commit but question when they should. It will drive you to leave them and then you both end up hurt from the lack of communication and not sharing one another’s love language. #FeelFreeToList

I’ve never been attracted to someone like my ex. By this i mean inside and out! I miss making out with my white ex 😔. I miss his smell. I miss it when he carry me. I miss looking into his blue eyes 💔. I miss our conversations. I miss feeling peaceful and safe on his lap. I miss everything about him. I wish if i could take him back one day! i now only want a white man like my ex so I could forget about him. I think if i was so attracted to him then i will be also attracted to my future white boyfriend like him and then forget easily about him. Because i think the worst thing is if i marry a brown guy and then I remember my white ex, nothing i could change then 😥. Should i be picky and just date anotger white man? Or am i stupid to think in this way?