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** by the way I wore what is exactly in my photo collage, a grey shirt and my blue jean shorts. It’s summer time and I refuse to be overdressed.

So I went into a restaurant with my toddler ordering lunch for us. Immediately the two girls who worked there most likely in their 20’s was fixated on me. They were laughing and looking my way and it’s like WTF you’re not professional at all and there’s nothing wrong with how I look. Keep in mind I’m 37 and we’re NOT in the same generation. They weren’t even attractive younger females and both considered chubby or fat to most of society, definitely not lookers in my opinion. I’m not mad or anything but just curious. I mind my business, comfortable in my skin and love who I am so the energy I got from them wasn’t even cool. Then the guy who worked there started instigating basically saying “don’t talk about her lol” he’s a piece of shit and easily age 30-35 and knew better. Instead he thought it was funny, I knew they were talking about me and he wanted to make sure I knew. Why? I don’t know. Maybe because he was a fat fuck I’d never want with raccoon eyes and look drugged out.

So there's this guy i text with, he texted me first and mostly does. But, he disappears in mid conversation. He was also gone for 2 months. But he just always comes back. And it hurts so much when he disappears. I get depressed, crying all day and stuff.
So me and my friends, came up with two conclusions.
1. He knows that i like him. And he thought, 'oh! This girl likes me! Must make her fall in love!' and is using the toxic technique. Just for fun
2. He just does whatever he feels like not regarding what i will feel.
Ps: i asked him why he disappears and he said, 'sometimes i just don't feel like to be on social media'
But he's online forever.
So... Isn't this just another way of saying, 'sometimes i just don't feel like to talk to you'?
So for the first one, I've been thinking this forever. But, when he talks to me, i just brush the thought off. Because, he's so nice, so clean and everything!
Also, i would've known if he was actually doing that right? While talking, i would've known something!
So i think It's rather the second one
And i also want advice on what i should do
Pps: i never told him I'm in love with him
Please comment what i should do