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I feel really alone after cutting my family off.. I’m realizing that you can’t heal from the same environment that broke you and it kept me in a bind for years because they heavily supported me and I was doing well until one day I really needed their support and I realized that I didn’t matter?

I was talking to a man I was head over heels for and he didn’t want me. We stopped dating and I was so depressed for a year and I just didn’t want to live and I told my mom about it and then my cousin… I told my cousin everything and she goes behind my back to talk to him

My cousin lives with my mom and I tell her that I think something is going on and my mom just ignores me or says “so what do you want me to do about it “ or she says “I’m sure there’s things that you’ve done “… so it felt like a knife in my chest fr… because it feels like I’ve been betrayed twice

And to this day I don’t know how to move on from it and everyone is saying let them fall in love etc and move on… I feel gaslit by my family over the situation…

For more than 2 decades I have seen my parents on most days are on good terms but I’ll never forget those times where my mom has a heated argument with my Dad and he will listen to her instead of arguing back. Although it’s rare but still I really hate it when that happens and couldn’t help but wonder should I get into a relationship/marriage because i couldn’t handle the nasty part. I hate conflicts no matter what, I know it’s normal that’s why I want to avoid it at all costs. From now onwards I’m choosing to stay single to preserve my peace as I hate conflicts.