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Met this girl on a Christian dating app. She only lived 1mile away. She even sent the first message which rarely happens and actually kept th conversation going. We talked for two days off and on. She would go to prayer meets with friends and bible study and therapy. Claimed to have been abused by her ex. Said she stopped being Christian and had sex with him but regretted it and now says that God has forgiven her. She's apparently all about bodily autonomy. Claims to not want kids until after marriage. I honestly don't want kids at all but I told her after marriage because I knew not having kids at all would have been a deal breaker. Long story short, she ends up texting me saying she prayed on it and decided she couldn't trust anyone she met online and that it wouldn't work out between us. I told her I understood but there's still a dull ache. I had asked God if she was the one he held onto for me and to give me a sign. I guess that was the sign. I'm honestly glad though because if being touched triggers her to the point of panic attacks, I don't think it would have been a healthy relationship. Thought Christians weren't supposed to live in fear. Was she a true Christian? Because I don't think she is...