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I’m person 1 he’s person 2

We want for a walk, it got cold & I didn’t want to go anywhere that costs anything so we went to his place and Listened to his collection of Ukrainian folk music on records which was cool I already knew bc we talked about It in the library.

We were there for a few hours then it got quiet And when I felt like he was gonna kiss me I said:

1 you can’t kiss me 🚫

2 uhh ok 😐

2…. for the record you have permission to kiss me 😉

So we both laughed. (Then I was going to try to explain my situation but I couldn’t sort it out so just showed him the post)

1 I was having difficulty sorting the situation out ethically and I asked people did advice bc I didn’t want to do the wrong & I have such little experience and strong tendency to avoid doing anything and so I don’t feel like I was able to rely on my own wisdom even tho I think generally, im fairly wise relatively. I asked for advice bc I didn’t want to treat anyone Badly.

(He was a bit surprised how he ended up coming off to me tho & hasn’t considered how odd it might come off to me bc he’s dated a lot of people and it’s sort of normal to him to talk about stuff but he also wasn’t always in the U S so I don't know maybe it’s diff other places)

2 🤔 You don’t seem flirty or anything kinda opposite really , so I didn’t think you were into me -or I thought you were very shy or conservative so I wasn’t expecting you to ask me out and then I guess I just assumed you were more experienced bc you asked me out... if I had known you are not really used to dating I probably would’ve approached things differently… I’m just used to sort of presenting myself as is, & whatever Happens happens

(He doesn’t mind if I give an update lol as long as no one knows him and don’t use his name he find this seeing other people thoughts amusing I guess)

So then I was silent, absorbing things and I felt a bit awkward bc it’s just normal to him so it must look crazy to him that I was concerned.

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So I met my best friend a little over a year and a half ago. We both work at the same place and hang out outside of work and go to the same college (we were basically roommates). I was originally “in love” with another guy whenever we started hanging out, and he helped show me that he was toxic for me. After that, I was able to get over that guy and focus on myself. Doing that, I realized that I actually had feelings for my best friend. I thought it was nothing at first, but throughout our friendship, those feelings have grown a lot stronger.
We both love Star Wars and Marvel. He makes sure I know that I am invited to different events that he is going to and tries to include me in everything. We go on late night drives (just the two of us) and listen to music or talk if either of us are upset or overwhelmed. People always know that he rides shotgun in my car because he designated himself as my co-pilot. I have had a few people ask me if we were dating because of how we act with each other.
The reason I haven’t told him yet is because he has a girlfriend. This hasn’t been a long-term girlfriend, but it’s been going well for them so far. He’s fallen for both of my best friends in the past and I’ve always been there to give him advice about any of the girls he was thinking about dating. Currently, his girlfriend and him are doing well (other than one night that they got in a fight and he ended up crying and talking to me about it).
I’ve had the overwhelming urge to tell him lately because my feelings are growing so strong and it hurts me a lot of the time. He’s also been teasing me a lot lately (jokingly) and is always cracking inside jokes with me which hasn’t helped. His girlfriend is so great and I love her. I’m just scared that I’m gonna go insane if I don’t tell him. I also don’t want to lose him as a friend because I don’t think I’ll be able to handle it. People keep telling me to let it run it’s course and I’ll get over it, but I haven’t.

What should I do?