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I've been without a friend for about 5 years now and I think it's mainly because I'm a bit of a complicated person. I'm outspoken yet so quiet most of the time, I'm so warm towards others in one moment but then ice cold the next, I don't see that I owe any loyalty to anyone besides my girlfriend and I aggressively avoid attaching myself to others.

My inner workings aren't very predictable by those aside from those who know me deeply of which only one person meets the bill on that, my girlfriend. She can sense when something is wrong even when I'm trying to hide it in an attempt to avoid adding stress to her day, and I'm the same with her, she doesn't even need to say a word before I know something is bothering her and address it immediately.

To paint a picture, I've looked for her my entire life, turning every stone and I've described it as being dumped on a planet made out of trash and fecal matter. On the planet contains many microscopic pieces of fools diamonds but the planet also contains one real diamond and that real diamond is her.

I believe making friends would only cause me to lose time I could otherwise spend with my girlfriend and eventually, he'll try to steal her from me since she's one of the only good women left in the world and the number is in the single digits, so it would bring conflict.

I also wouldn't be able to connect with them as the only time I feel positive emotions is when I'm with her, I'm incapable of feeling any positive emotions when she isn't around.

My girlfriend is the only person in the world that I care about and she's my everything, so making friends would only drive a wedge between me and her which is the last thing I'd want.

Would you date someone with no friends?

I've been in two at this point, there was a girl I was with for 6 months in 2020 but she had her mom tell me she passed away and months later when I was talking with who is now my girlfriend, I was given answers by her new boyfriend at the time when I begged him to say something.

She ended up messaging me but offered no explanation and the only apology i got was "I'm moving in with him in a year, sorry". While it sucks that it ended that way, I'm glad she didn't die cause the last thing I did before that stunt was pulled was ask her why she didn't tell me about the late text she got from who's now her current boyfriend at the time. Yeah, that sucked and I wish I'd been with my current girlfriend from the start.

Me and her are still together and going strong. We talk every single day and say "I love you" every day. She's been there for me like nobody else has and I've done the same for her and will continue to.

I've grown so happy with her that I question the way I described finding her, I said trying to find someone was like being on a planet made out of trash and fecal matter knowing that for the entire planet, there's one microscopic diamond there but the rest is literal shit and I had to dig until I found it.

Of course it was all worth it as I now experience love which is something I thought for a long time, I'd never experience in my life and it's wonderful. I'd never want to be with anyone else but I did question if describing so many people as trash and fecal matter in my analogy was too harsh.

However, as soon as I started watching loyalty tests, yeah I'm thinking I was right on the money there, pun intended. You name it and girls + guys did it in those tests, it's sad that people are so horrible to eachother nowadays.

What do you value most in a relationship? The most important things for me are affection, support, gotta at least be cute, nice, genuine, introverted and loyal. Money is a factor but not a big one for me