Search Results: in the time of the butterflies

I’m 25 and my parents still have not noticed I have tattoos. My family are surper religious goody goody people, no tattoos, marry perfect white guy, no sex, be innocent angel. Since I was 23 I got tatoos it was always my dream & I like tattoos. I have a heart on my finger, rose on my wrist and plan get a small butterfly on my other wrist. I have another tattoo on my finger that says a word from my business. I wear longsleeve 24/7 and live alone so I don’t see them often. But I put makeup for my finger tattoos. One time a guy said he likes my finger tattoos and my mom said what? She didn’t like tattoos nor has any. The guy looked so confused. Then mom once said oh this guys girlfriend is so ugly she has a million tattoos disgusting. my dad has a tattoo of our dog that passed away but my mom never got mad , but when it comes to me she’ll beat me if she finds out when I visit her. She’ll hit me really hard be furious and even cry as she wants control my life have my life be how she wants only. My boyfriend has a lot of tattoos too.

Hey, so I met a guy around 7 yr ago while I was working in a restaurant, he asked for my number &then a few weeks later I got a train to see him for the weekend. We got on really really well but I didn’t sleep with him as wernt officially dating, we spoke for months after but I ended up going travelling& when I got back he had a girlfriend, I ended up in a 3 year relationship but then we both somehow ended up single at the same time, he contacted me (as must have seen I deleted all photos of ex) we went on a date and the date was just amazing I can’t explain the butterfly feeling he gives me. Still didn’t sleep with him as I’m old fashioned and we weren’t exclusive.. anyways after the date I got back with my ex and we didn’t speak. A year later I’m single & he gets in touch asking if I’m okay and randomly turned up at my house with flowers to cheer me up. we end up talking for a few weeks and he’s asking me why I never make effort to talk to him and why he’s always chasing me (he’s a basketball player so I’m kind of wary that he’s talking to loads of other girls & I’m a bit shy I’m nowhere near as hot) by the way we still haven’t had sex but just having a really nice connection. Again he goes radio Silent on me.. so fast forward a few months and he rings me drunk saying I’m the only person he’s ever loved and he’s so nervous around me etc.. I thought I would make more effort with him so I start finally messaging first and stuff and we plan to have a night away and we talk about having sex & it gets quiet passionate. then again he goes radio silent. so a month goes by & after hearing nothing from him he pops up merry Christmas I love you & one day your going to be my wife which is random as hell since he practically ghosted me twice this year? Then after talking every night on the phone he’s gone silent again? am I reading this all wrong does he even like me or what? or am I just not making enough effort? & no he doesn’t have a wife or a girlfriend I know his family