Have you ever been hurt that bad and how did you manage your emotions?

[lightbulb27]

It's not easy being a human is it...

I think we have some explaining to do so AI can understand us... and won't decide to wipe us out...

Yes, been that mad

Never that mad

Other

[Agape93]

That's an understatement. I hide it and crush what I feel most times because most times I open up, it gets shoved in my face later or I get in trouble for doing so. 💀 🔫

[lightbulb27]

I can relate to hide it... I then try to reform it, as it can be reprocessed and come out later... better. how do you crush it?
It sounds like you are the adult around children...
Does anyone ever validate your feelings or understand why you are mad?

[Agape93]

I make sure to bury it deep and use it to feed my natural instincts. I take my pain and use it as a stepping stone for my goals and my aggression.

Some do, most don't. I've only met one person who's been through very similar to me, and she's the only one who actually understands exactly why I am the way I am. I miss her.

[lightbulb27]

Yes, unless been through something, even a PhD won't really get it. There's no replacement for personal experience. "In your weakness you are strong" is true, what was meant for evil, when healed, can be turned into good to help others through.
Ugh, anger held onto will eat and destroy within, I've seen that. I hope you have a way of letting go. Meditation be really good if can do it. Certainly good you live in nature and don't have to deal with stresses of so many people in cities.
your friend died? Is that the one on the reservation out west? I noticed someone missing and she said she was going to die.

[Agape93]

Sadly, anger and love are the two things I really even feel anymore, and even my concept of love is warped as is how I express it.
I have no desire to help people I don't care about. None. I don't care if people live or die. I don't care if they go hungry. Or get sick. Or get crippled.

Not her, I'm talking about ducky, not the native girl on the ranch. And I don't know if she's alive or not. If she is, I wanna know. If she isn't, then at least she can finally rest in peace like she deserves.

[lightbulb27]

I don't think I know ducky and I don't know what became of the other girl, people out here just drift off.
Understood. I found giving "was better than receiving" to be spiritual truth... fits in the hierarchy of self actualization. your mileage may vary...


I think we're most all warped... when you are released from that oppression, it really be a charge.

[Agape93]

She usually comes back once a year but she didn't. Makes me worried.

That's a cute way of seeing things

[lightbulb27]

Yea she was talking serious wasn't going to survive. Just never know peoples reality.

passing on what I experienced and makes sense, for what it's worth to you. Were always changing, question is in what way and if it's towards our "truer" path. You are young, I knew nothing at your age.
Peace... out!

[Agape93]

Based on what happened to her and her medical consequences, I doubt she'd live for more than a few years tops.

[lightbulb27]

That I don't know. Unfortunate, young. I hope she found some peace and life. It's not a fair world at all, some people get out of their fix, and others get stuck... no fault of their own. Sad to see, one would think our society would have evolved; but it has a lot to improve.

[Anonymous]

I did once. I vowed that I would never allow it to happen again. I wouldn't say I've become numb. But there is a part of my heart that will never be anyone but mine. I love and I can love deeply. But I will never love fully ever again. I'm always in control of my emotions now. ALWAYS!

[IslaTheWitch]

I'm sometimes carried by emotions... nothing extremely wild but also nothing to be proud about :D

[Dargil]

Yes. There's a lot like being in military combat. You just have to tough it out.

[Anonymous]

I manage it with meditation.