Needing to vent... eating disorder issues. Anyone else out there?

[Anonymous]

So I got called fat. I was getting "chunky". I know I gained a few pounds I don't need anyone verifying it for me.
Thank you asshole I'm already insecure about my weight, been insecure since I can remember. Then the comment was from a family member
Its absolutely disgusting to comment on someone's weight. Skinnky or fat. Just don't.
I want to starve myself again and throw up when I feel too full. Recently I started taking weight loss pills but it does nothing for me. Its like a monster in the back of your mind telling you, "No don't eat that. Don't eat too much. Think of all the weight you'll gain. You need to be skinny. Fat fat fat"
I hate my stomach.

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I think for me to feel better about myself I need to start again... I want to be skinny

[Ranger94]

In the past few months I've gained weight. I have felt horrible with myself. When I was quite young around 10 I had a eating disorder and was as skinny as a stick.

Starving yourself will not help or throwing up. Both are harmful to your body and can cause serious damage and weight loss pills are silly

When you feel "fat" why not go for a walk around the block? Or do some sort of exercise. That's what I do now and think healthier. Like when you want something sweet, have a piece of fruit or a yogurt.

Also, maybe you need to speak to a professional who will wble to help you deal with your feelings of your body and help you learn better thinking for when you feel upset or depressed

[Cmasterson]

If it helps try to get your metabolism up and going, I use to be really self conscious of the fact that I ate all the time, but in reality I eat up to 6 meals a day and burn more than I ever would eating twice a day. Don't worry about what others have to say, you're perfectly aware of your own body and it's not like you go out your way to make them feel shitty, which in the end makes you a better person. Don't give in to your inner demons xx

[genericname85]

i try to use that anger in the gym. it helps me sometimes but i hate when you know you´ve been slacking of an people tell you that you´ve been putting on recently... XD lile "fuck you! i know!"

[Anonymous]

I know how u feel girl. I am dating a really fit guy and since we got together I gained some weight. He says I still look perfect but I know I don't and I hate that I don't feel like we match. Keep wanting to exercise and eat better, but then I just sit around & still eat too much. Diet pills are my next plan!