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I tend to find a lot of people irritating therefore avoid them. I think people can tell when I don’t want them around me.. I hate it when strangers come into my personal space, touch me or if I can smell their bad breath or hygiene issues. I think I have more of an issue with this than most people do.
I also don’t see much point in talking to someone unless I can get something out of them or I really enjoy their company like I find them interesting etc. Whenever I’ve had friends, I’ve noticed I drink too much at the pub and completely dominate the conversations, I like the attention all on me.
I always feel sort of numb, bored or maybe depressed. but I also ruminate and stress very easily, leading me to feel like I have to control situations or avoid them. If I have to work in group activities at university, I zone out and can’t concentrate because I find it overwhelming and don’t see the point of contributing unless I’m the leader however I’d still much rather sit back and do nothing or just do what I’m told to do etc. I used to get very good grades at school without much effort… now I’m struggling and scraping by with passes at uni because of poor time management and having random special interests distracting me.

I also feel the need to be somehow better than others.. this is why I like being a musician… a lot of the people on my uni course can’t play their instruments that well and I feel superior to them because of that.. however I feel upset if they do better than me in assessments. I also get massive anxiety if I feel like I won’t perform well, but if I know my parts well I get a bit egotistical … even as a kid I loved the attention from performing and playing instruments. I also love getting positive attention from lecturers and even seduced one and had sex with them to sort of “test” if I could win him over, but at the same time I was also very infatuated with him for no logical reason at all. I think I wanted to see how far he would go with me.

I've been watching you lot on the run up to the election, which I may add seems to be a permanent thing for you people, every day is campaign day. Take a bloody break.

And what's with constantly trying to own the other side? It's like watching 5 year olds going, "na na na na na na I'm the king of the castle.." it's one step away from sticking your fingers in your ears and blowing raspberries. Do we really need need to make millions of memes and YouTube videos? Why you so obsessed with stirring the pot?

And why's everyone so nasty and full of hate? The language uses isn't very nice is it? Over here we refer to the opposition as the right honourable gentleman on the right/left and not as a libtard or Republicunt, and one certainly does not accuse them of lying, more that they are mistaken or misinformed. You lot seem intent on dehumanising each other, that's how genocides start you know.

And stop worshipping politicians like God's, no other civilised country does this? It makes you look like a Banana Republic on the brink of civil war. Fawning over your leaders like infatuated 12 year old girls at a boy band concert just makes you look ridiculous on the world stage.

Isn't it time you stopped villifing each other, stopped labelling everything a left/right issue to to demolished with gusto, showed some dignity and grew up.