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I voted for Trump all three past election cycles. I will not sugarcoat this the slightest: this is an absolute abhorrent clusterfuck and I feel ashamed, outraged, scared, and duped beyond belief.

I am a right-leaning conservative, but this goes well beyond issues based on partisan lines. Fuel over $4.29 a gallon? Partnerships with mass surveillance companies and deployment of AI mass surveillance technologies on citizens? Trump posting with an AI depiction of him as Jesus with a 3-horned, bulky, shadow figure in the background? The walls closing in on the job market? Mass layoffs and an existential crisis among young Americans and the middle class? Talks of a draft? A fertilizer shortage in the midst of a severe drought with talks of famine on the horizon? Our fire and emergency services throughout the nation on the verge of collapse during this major drought we are in? The willful dismissal of the Epstein scandal? The passiveness when everyday Americans are on the brink of losing everything with just one unexpected emergency?

What are we? China? North Korea? The middle east? Are we under authoritarian rule transitioning into totalitarianism?

This guy is not just insane and delusional. This man is pure evil.

The left's aggressive identity politics, sociopolitical agenda, and social engineering practices were awful and destructive. What this man and his administration is doing is egregious and beyond disgusting. I don't even know what words to use to describe my sheer embarrassment, disgust, and betrayal I am feeling right now. I never imagined our nation would reach a point like this. I never saw it coming.

I have not really gotten off the ground running on just about everything in life. It is really hurting my self-esteem and has left me feeling ignored, irrelevant, bored, and feeling like I am losing my ever fucking mind.

I will provide a few examples:

One, I have been trying to sell my independent web services. I am a talented web developer. I acknowledge AI is making it easier to create web apps and websites, but not everyone has fully adopted it yet for these purposes. I had a few clients and created websites for them last year. I received mostly positive feedback, and I offered my services for a steal. I was supposed to work on one more website for another small business, and it has been over 6 months and I haven't heard a thing from them. That is now $1,500 I will not be getting. They are a landscaping supply company, so this time of year would be ideal. Meanwhile, I launched a website trying to gain clients. No calls, no web form submissions, nothing. I advertise, sometimes cold call, reach out to other recruiters and company owners... nothing. One of my clients from last year that I was told needed updates, they have yet to provide me with anything. Potential and existing clients are pulling back.

Then, I am spending a lot of my time now trying to advocate and raise awareness about our crumbling public safety infrastructure in my state, as it has become very problematic. I have spoken with news organizations, and they now either lie saying they will "get to it" or I am ignored and sidelined.

I feel like I am not taken seriously now, and that I have become irrelevant.