But I need to sleep, I am important personal matters that require me in full capacity. During the day, I can keep busy and not feel crushed by that "second break up", but at night... It is impossible for me to sleep, nothing to distract me from the pain. I did manage to get some sleep the first night, by using the good memories I have of my ex. Remembering the first kiss, what I love about her, the romance, living in fantasy, it made the pain go away and I could actually sleep.
Is it healthy to use that to go to sleep? I can't help but feel like this is only going to make things worse. I feel that every night I'm taking a step backwards by letting the memories flow unbridled. But it is still healthier than drinking myself to sleep, and I can't afford spending all night completely awake, this will destroy me.
What the hell am I supposed to do?