Moving on, help?

Emilyrich93
So I was talking to a guy for 1.5 years everything was going great he was going to get a remote job from home and then I ruined everything, it was long distance.

we took a break and during that break he quit his job and got a new one, moved cities and met someone almost immediately. All the the span of 2-3 weeks.

I was devastated, I felt extremely guilty for ruining what we had and really thought he was the one. Flash forward 5 months he did warn me that he was thinking of proposing prior to me moving to close the distance.

I had the crazy notion that if I closed the distance he would realize what he had and hopefully all those emotions would rush back in and maybe just maybe he would chose me. 5 months I moved to his city for a job contract. A week or two after I moved here he proposed. He did state that he didn’t want me to have hope of us working out after I moved here because “when you know you know”. Flash forward two months and they’re about to get married.

It’s been almost 8 or 9 months since we ended things. I’ve gone on dates, I’ve tried to keep myself busy, I’m looking into fostering animals.
I haven’t talked to him in months. I’ve avoided going ti the gym at times he’d go and avoided going to church the times he goes. I still wake up every morning with this awful like pit feeling, my mind still wanders not really understanding how I could feel so strongly about someone and have them move on and get married in such a short amount of time as if I meant nothing.

does he miss me or think about me? Was he just trying to replace me quickly? Did he never really like me and if not why did he waste my time for over a year?
When is this feeling going to go away? Why do I think of him when I’m trying to date others? It’s been months :/
Moving on, help?
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