But over the last year she has spiraled worse and worse, jumping from one medical crisis to the next, and she has incredibly low self esteem. I have tried to be a good influence but she has only gotten worse and regularly messages me about how terrible she looks. I tried to reassure her at first but later I started saying “don’t be so harsh on yourself, I don’t want you to talk about yourself like that”. It’s not very supportive and my not be the right way to respond but there really isn’t a good way to respond.
And she has had multiple major injuries and sicknesses, I feel like we are constantly battling something. Which is putting a lot of stress on me because my job has gotten horrible. I pretty much know I am leaving my company and that it’ll likely mean I have to move away, which would essentially end the relationship for multiple reasons.
The issue is, she loves me so much and relies on me for her happiness. And I am terrified what breaking up with her will do to her. But I know I can’t stay just because I don’t want to hurt her, because as work gets worse, I have been finding myself getting colder towards her and she has gone through so many issues that I have just lost all my attraction for her. I feel more like a caretaker telling someone how to live, not even be healthy.
I could really use some advice.
Have me move across the country and it’s just everything piled up to the point where I don’t want to lead her on anymore.