Break Up & Divorce

What are your thoughts and advice?

I recently went through a breakup and it shattered my heart. I miss him a lot. I miss his sexy voice. I miss his hands. I miss his presence. I miss our conversation. I miss looking into his eyes. He was so intelligent, not really funny, a bit goofy. An absolute nerd and I loved that he was a nerd who loved playing video games. No one knows I'm going through a breakup because I never told anyone about the relationship. The break up really broke me because I cared for him and liked him a lot. We were together for only a few months. I am the one who broke it off because I knew it wasn't right. The issue is that he wasn't intentional with me. He would say one thing, but his actions would be totally different. He was a more go with the flow kind of guy and was more into seeing me in person and texting but not really phone calls. I just wonder if I had done anything different would we have worked out. But I believe that there is nothing I could have really done to change the outcome. It just hurts because I was enthusiastic but I felt like the relationship was leading to nowhere. I feel like I was dragging most of the weight in the relationship and putting in more effort. I know I deserve better than what he was giving me. I'm going sign up for intense therapy so I can work on my healing and to work on making my life much more fulfilling. I recently picked up two new hobbies. I keep myself pretty busy , but its the times when I'm in bed about to fall asleep or when I'm completely alone that the memories come back to me and I start overthinking and crying. I just pray that when I finally get over him and heal someone better will come along. I pray that GOD sends me someone so amazing beyond my imagination that is will to be intentional and put as much effort as me. Any advice on what I can do.

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