Still in love with my kids mother but I was bogus and pushed her. away now she got a new man? I work as a mechanic so I think a lot? What should I do?

5. Years and I just didn't think it would happen. Know she runs it in my face but still says we are tied for life and that I'm forever a big impact on her. I get some narly mood swings but it's bc I can't let shit go sometimes. And It effected me pretty bad. I'm not choosing drugs or liquor I do smoke pot but nothing harsh !

Still in love with my kids mother but I was bogus and pushed her. away now she got a new man? I work as a mechanic so I think a lot? What should I do?
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