Break Up & Divorce

How did you survive and learn from your toxic relationship with your ex/exes?

I met him here on GAG. I didn’t notice he’s manipulative until 1 month later and it instantly killed my attraction towards him but instead of breaking up with him I stayed chatting with him most of the replies were me tearing him down and gaslighting him because I knew he’s not a decent guy. I realised destroying him doesn’t make me better than him. I had been doing that for 6 months. It’s because there was once I lied to him about wanting to meet at his house to do the deed before I realised his toxic behaviour. In the end I pretended to say I’m reaching at the destination but instead I didn’t turned up. He got mad and yelled at me ‘YOU REALLY ENJOY WASTING MY TIME DIDN’T YOU!’ I replied with a laugh emoji and type ‘serves you right!’ Then I proceeded to type more insults towards him until I realised I was blocked by him. I wouldn’t say he’s my ex boyfriend but more of a bad experience with a man who claims to love me but doesn’t since he’s in it for the sex. I remembered asking him to meet me at a park but he kept giving excuses saying he’s not sure, etc. So yeah at least I didn’t give my virginity to him which is a plus and I didn’t meet him irl. I realised being single is more suitable for me. It’s not because of my ex but more of me doing research and finding out I’m more likely to feel comfortable and happy being single. I don’t want a partner in my life as I can live without one. I have nothing against those who wants true love because everyone is different. I couldn’t handle the disadvantages of a relationship so that’s why.

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I know he’s not the only one at fault, I’m too for being toxic back to him as a retaliation when I should have ended things by blocking him immediately and cutting all contact with him.
How did you survive and learn from your toxic relationship with your ex/exes?
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