An amazing woman entered my life a couple weeks ago...

[acealmighty13]

I don't feel this needs to be a question and really just need to vent and let something out of my head before I do or say something stupid....feedback might help calm me down.

I met this amazing woman a couple weeks ago and I have a tendency to get attached fairly easily but try my best to hold back. Everyone has that list of what they want in someone. So far, she's hit everyone of them. Beautiful, clever, easy to talk to(i have the hardest time talking to women), funny, sexy, honest to the point of being blunt and I could be having a shitty day, a text from her makes it all the better. :-) She's busy. This past week, she's missed out on the three dates I set up for either work or family(I think he's family). In my past, I've been lied to, cheated on, been the cheatee, blown off and the feeling sucks for me. I've had three decent relationships. Meeting someone like her has been like the light at the end of the tunnel. I've dealt with all this crap, to meet her.

I can't get her out of my head. I'm not as busy as her, so I make plans around my free time. When that free time includes me sitting at home, waiting for her to call or text me that she'll be ready in a half hour and it doesn't happen. My mind starts to revert back to the old self and I start to come up with these stories and put thoughts in my head that don't need to be there. What's worse, is that she posts a lot on Facebook with photos and I really start to lose my mind because I sit there and sift through them like a crazy person. I don't want to be that guy! I'm trying to keep the crazy from coming out by typing it all here.

I don't want to give up just because I'm losing it. So far, everything I've seen, has a reasonable story or truth to it and having her pop into my life has, so far, proven that there is someone out there that doesn't pull bullshit stunts, blow me off because (insert excuse here), lie to me, or ignore me. If there's one thing I'd change about myself is that I wish I didn't grow attached to someone so easily. Is there a way to bring this up without sounding crazy? Should I just leave this alone and hope for the best? Hell, soothing words might help me at this point. Maybe just spewing these words out into type might ease my mind and realize how crazy I sound and I just need to calm the fuck down. Ha ha! I know it's only a couple of weeks in and that's another reason I'm typing this out. I don't want to screw this up on part of something I did or said, when I should have just let it go. Instant access to everything really fucks you up. Ha ha!