“A guy out there was meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soul mate, the one you can tell your dreams to. He'll brush the hair out of your eyes. Send you flowers when you least expect it. He'll stare at you during the movies, even though he paid $8 to see it. He'll call to say goodnight or just cause he's missing you. He'll look in your eyes and tell you, you're the most beautiful girl in the world, and for the first times in your life, you'll believe it.” - Quote by Nicholas Sparks
We may be separated right now, romantically. But my love for you has never disappeared. You still exist in my thoughts, in my dreams, and in my hopes for the future. I know our circumastances weren't the best, and we had parted ways due to that. However... I hold no animosity towards you. There are positives about you, just as there are negatives... but I believe that none of us are perfect, and there are a lot of things we all need to work on, individually to help us grow and mature. You don't feel you're good enough, or special enough for me. You don't see yourself the way I see you... which dearly hurts me, because in my eyes you are incredible.
The way you smiled at me and looked deeply into my eyes. Your curly, beautiful hair, and that handsome face. The way you called me, "princess", and always called me beautiful, although I'm so insecure. The way you held me tightly in your arms as we cuddled underneath Heaven's stars at night. Your goofiness. Your bad boy ways- when you'd swear and drink alchohol but still be such a loving sweetheart at the same time. Your protectiveness... the times you'd get angry at the idea of another man touching me or even looking at me.
I miss kissing you in the rain, sharing a strawberry funnel cake and salt & vinegar fries at the fair, dancing like weirdos with you, me being clumsy and falling everywhere, every song we've ever claimed ours, sharing heartfelt emotions with each other at night, promising each other a beautiful future, the tickle fights we had, grocery store runs and indulging in junk food as we watched Netflix, the crazy carpool karaokees, babysitting and dealing with whiny children together and taking on the "mommy and daddy" role although I was the one who spoiled them and gave them what they want; you being the strict dad figure who'd sit the ground rules down. The time we went to Reunion Tower and watched the stars at night, our runs to In & Out and the times we both indulged in Chick-fil-A meals together and obsessed over their Polynesian sauce and lemonade.
Thank you for being a part of my fairytale, and also fulfilling my every dream and desire. You've taught me so much about myself and the things I need to work on as an individual and grow through as a person. I still think about you, and I still have love for you in my heart. I hope you've been taking care of yourself. I hope that you've been becoming a better version of you, as I've been working on becoming a better version of me. Because you taught me that.
If we are indeed meant to be together in the future, then within the right timing, we will reconnect and be together forever. Because, we'd originally spent nights promising one another this. The day you asked me to marry you... whether you were sincere or not, I hold the memory close to my heart. And if it's meant for our future, I am dearly holding onto hope for that. You are the Prince Charming every girl dreams of, and despite your flaws in maintaining a relationship right now... I believe that when you become the best version of yourself one day, you'll be all the more alluring. Until then, I wish you an abundance of happiness! :-)
The girl who always has your best interest at heart. ♡