Things You Should Know Before You Date Me

PossiblyInsane

Inspired by @pitzi 's take. I figured, why not, I have literally nothing else to do. Just like hers, it's just for fun. Not planning on having an online relationship lmao

1. I have a lot of insecurities.

And when I say a lot, I mean a lot. I'm very insecure about myself, and I want someone who will be there to support me when I feel that way.

Things You Should Know Before You Date Me

2. I'm indecisive.

I change my mind constantly. I still don't know if I want to adopt children (I won't be having any of my own, though) or anything like that.

Things You Should Know Before You Date Me

3. I have goals set for myself that I refuse to let myself let go of.

I have things I want to do by the time I turn 30 and I will not disappoint myself. I want to be a musician. I want to do some modeling and photography. I want to work for and earn whatever I have. I have so many more, I could go on forever.

Things You Should Know Before You Date Me

4. I have family issues.

If you like meeting your SO's parents, I am not the girl for you. My father has never really been prominent in my life (though I do have some issues involving him), and my mother and stepfather are just awful human beings that I never want to see again.

Things You Should Know Before You Date Me

5. I'm not stereotypically girly.

I don't want any kids of my own. I don't want a big, fancy wedding. I might elope, but nothing else. I rarely wear dresses. I like my car and I like mechanics. I do kickboxing. I travel a lot and don't settle in one place. I don't have a steady job and I don't think I really want one. I don't plan to retire and live somewhere out in the suburbs. I will live in major cities probably for the majority of my life. I move on impulse. I'm impossible to keep up with. I listen to rock music. I'm not one for cheesy romance movies or caking my face with makeup. Being girly just isn't my thing.

Things You Should Know Before You Date Me

6. I have mental illnesses.

I struggle with anxiety, bipolar disorder, PTSD, and psychosis. I'm unpredictable. Sometimes I'l feel really good about myself and I'll be super upbeat. Other days I might not even get out of bed because I'm depressed. I might have panic attacks because I'm reliving things from the past or I'm in a social situation I can't cope with. I get angry in a split second and could start throwing things at your head. I have to plan out the transaction before I order food, even from McDonald's. I wake up in the middle of the night screaming and having panic attacks because of nightmares. In general, I'm just abnormally paranoid. You could come home one day and I could be huddled in a corner with broken glass everywhere because I needed an outlet for rage. I know not many people can deal with it, but having someone there helps stop these things from happening.

Things You Should Know Before You Date Me

7. I need my space.

Even with someone I'm close to, I need some time alone to process things.

Things You Should Know Before You Date Me

8. Some things are very important to me.

I play music as an outlet and an expression of my emotions. I don't want to be interrupted or judged for what I play. I find driving therapeutic, and sometimes I just drive for a few hours to think. You could come with me, but I just need to look up at the sky and think about what's going on with me to process.

Things You Should Know Before You Date Me

9. I know I'm a pain in the ass.

The things I want aren't always the things I get, and I know it's not realistic of me to expect them, but on some level I still do expect them. Over the course of one day, I could go from ultra-clingy to wanting to just be alone. I try not to annoy people, but I think I accidentally annoy them all the time. I need reassurance. I'm human, it's just what happens.

Things You Should Know Before You Date Me

Thank you for wasting your time by reading this. I hope this really made you think about how frustrating I am. Bye :)

Things You Should Know Before You Date Me
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