Late bloomer & have never kissed a girl

Anonymous
Hi everyone. I just turned 30 years old in May, but I've never kissed a girl. I've never dated a lot but I'm getting better and dating a bit more than before. But I've never kissed a girl.

What would girls think if you knew this? I'm not ugly or fat or anything like that. I was abused as a child and I've had a lot of depression, but I'm better than in my teens and 20s. It feels kind of embarrassing to talk about it, but if you don't talk about problems they never get better.

Should I tell a girl before I kiss her, or should I just kiss her quickly and get over it and worry about the details later? Should I tell her I've never kissed and ask her to teach me? Sometimes I think about lying and saying I've never kissed "a lot" to take some of the pressure off myself, but lying can cause problems later, so I don't know.

Everything about this is new to me and I don't know what's "normal." I know not all girls expect to make out or have sex soon, but do I kiss her at the end of the first date or the second date or what?

Any advice from anyone would be good.

Thanks for reading this.
Updates:
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No girls have ever directly tried to kiss me. A few times I think they wanted me to, and put their face a little closer to me. But I kinda panicked. And I wasn't ready to deal with the abuse till I was about 25. Thanks for all the helpful comments.
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