I was once seeing a guy that I had an interest in for awhile. He never gave me the proper day or time of his day through texting and hangouts. Yet he would on his own terms. Our 'relationship' wasn't making sense. He would tell me how much he likes me. We had very strong chemistry with our personalities. We talked traveling and future plans, etc. Yet our 'relationship' never happened outside of my apartment. We just cuddled, rickled each other, had sex, and we'd kiss. Yet never kissed saying goodbye. How confusing, right?
This guy ended up ghosting me. I was going through a lot of things, that he took the easy way door out. Time goes on. I'm self-healing and self-loving, knowing that I'm not at fault. Called this guy a coward. End of that. Never heard anything. I took the time and I cried quite a few times.
Within' 8+ months, I put myself out there to date. I kind of didn't care about the dating world. Wasn't trying, yet I had the what if's. I was going along, and I met a guy who is now my boyfriend. Going on dates with this guy (now boyfriend, wasn't at the time) the guy that ghosted me. He came back, apologized for ghosted me. Mentioned how much it hurt him that he did what he did. Was giving me his time of day, etc.
I was done juggling, and I was kind of like.. You hurt me, and now you're trying to make an effort when I was DOING that. Ironically, I shoved this guy out of my life. Said how I was getting to know somebody, who I was wanting to get to know. That he had his chance, etc. Boom! Sent that message. Blocked. I moved forward..
All of a sudden, this happened almost a year ago. I'm having DREAMS about this person. I wake up very startled, feeling like I cheated or something!!
