Is it normal to lose desire for men? why men don’t want a girlfriend & love me?

I got used to be alone& lost desire for men as no one made my dream of attending family functions with me come true.😔

at 13 my friend don’t like me back & distant.

at 17 guy I liked don’t like me back& like a blonde girl.
At 18 my guy friend went on date with me but he chose other girl he was talking to first& left to navy.
At 18 I met guy at job that liked me& he’s only guy that dated me but were never offical. He used me for sex&dates 7 years& denied meet family. I thought he was my boyfriend& he saw me as friends with benefits.

we never dated weekly, just 2x a month, only one month we dated weekly. so at 25 I dump him.

at 25 I fell in love with guy at my job. we met 3 days as we got seperated due to work schedules & missed chance exhange numbers&felt he was my soulmate.

then I get fired.& return to job at 26. Between that I met 100 guys online & all wanted sex only. One boy I did hookup with but only cuz he acted & looked exaclty like the guy I fell in love with. So it was blissful night together in an Airbnb& he even slept in same bed with me like a husband. he lived in another state& only wanted sex.

I came across one guy that wanted marry me meet family but it was guy that looked like a fatter version of the guy that used me for sex & dates that I dumped. & i didn’t like him back.
I’m 27 & talking to new guy at work since Dec, that I’m smitten for. it’s all slow & not sure if we’ll be couple in future. it don’t seem like he wants me for sex cuz he’s not texting me fast for kiss, sex & its 3 months I know him. It’s more like a spiritual emotional connection he’s doing w/me.


2 other guys from work I met & texted me fast&wanted sex fast.

I met guy last wk but he lied how we’ll go for beach date & he’s distant as he only wanted hookup.

everyone in my family is married pregnant have babies & I remain alone at the family functions

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I lost desire for sex, I lost desire for men. Only the guy that I’m smitten for gives me joy and butterflies.

But I lost desire to go on dates, or to meet more new men. I only Desiré talk to men as friends as I don’t get along with girsl. But I have lost interest romantically and not sure if this is normal.

I would love live with that guy I’m smitten for and hav his baby at least , but the universe won’t make it come true just once make it come true with a guy I desire deeply. It’s ok if it
Is it normal to lose desire for men? why men don’t want a girlfriend & love me?
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