How come nobody or a lot of people mention that I’m beautiful or stunning?

Now I know I am not the most attractive or gorgeous woman and I am not a 8/10, 9/10, or 10/10, but I’m a good person. Not a lot of guys had a crush on me, guys I liked always went for prettier slimmer or fit girls. Even my thick older sister who is 5’6 gets attention from men and she’s fit. I am plain, gap toothed, chubby, 5’11 and 230lbs. I’m a big girl. I know there guys that love big girls but I don’t get a lot of attention. I’ve never heard my dad call me beautiful or gorgeous. He called me lovely which meant a lot. He even said some of my cousins are drop dead gorgeous. Let flat out said, “If you think she’s pretty (me), her cousin is drop dead gorgeous. I told my younger brother to keep them horny dogs from her.”

That honestly made me feel so horrible about myself. I did a lot of things to make myself more sexier but nothing works. I asked my mom does she think I’m beautiful. She looked me and looked nervous. Gave me a crooked smile and said NOTHING. That broke my heart. And I just walked away. I was always the DUFF of my three gorgeous slim friends. Guys always talks to me likes my attractive friends. The guy who was good looking, 6’4 wanted to talk to me and I felt like I was going to pass out. Finally a guy that has interest in me! But it broke my heart when he asked about one of my friends (5’5) and to give her his number and she’s super beautiful.
I’m so frustrated! Who don’t guys like me? I’m always in the friendzone!

My ex boyfriend who I only dated for six months was chubby and short but I loved him and he loved me. When I overheard him talking to his guy friends about attractive actresses he said if would choose Victoria Justice. He finds her, very attractive, gorgeous and even though she’s thin, she’s sexy. If he wasn’t dating me, he would dig her because I won’t win “Miss America with my weight.” That CRUSHED ME. We’re no longer together. He cheated on me with a short thick girl. I’m DONE!

How come nobody or a lot of people mention that I’m beautiful or stunning?
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