This is a long story but the necessary details are that I fell for my close female freind who is best freinds with my exfreind from a disbanded social circle. I flirted with and asked out my close freind who went to my exfreind for help who sabotaged and dragged things out. In the end my close freind and I had both hurt each other yet by talking we managed to stay freinds. One of the things that the exfreind did was to pray on her insecurity and had her ask me why I fell for her. The only answer I could give her was that I just did fall head over heals for her. I told her about how I enjoyed her company so much amoung other things that I loved about my freind. Sadly the exfreind planted the idea in her that if I did not give a specific reason. Like that I could not live without her smile in my life that I was just blowing smoke. While we talked after it was all over she asked me why I fell for her again. All I could tell her was that I did not mean to and that at times my feelings for her made me feel like I was insane and obsessed with her. Basically the heart wants what the heart wants and the brain is often left behind. After we talked about our feelings and about how I was over her but I still had some work to fully be her freind again and she admitted that she also needed time to be freinds.
Eventually we were close freinds again and at times even closer than we were before. How ever today while we were hanging out with our freinds a song came on about being crazy in love and how it felt like insanity and that the singer had to chase the girl. My close freind was happily singing along smiling having fun with her female freind next to her. When I noticed that some of us were not smiling and singing along to the fun song. Few of us at a table of 8 were remembering. A line came up and I forgot what it was but it described my situation with her perfectly. My heart ran after her while my head had to catch up while going through the traffic of insanity. Something like that. I just felt a stake in my heart like I just wanted her to know that was how I felt while I had a crush on her. How can so be having fun singing to that kind of pain? But of course she has never fallen hard for anyone yet.
Thanks for listening and hopefully we will have one of those deep talks again but for now. I'm not going to say anything to her. There is no need to bring it up now cause it will just get in the way of our friendship that is still healing while our trust grows back.
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Maybe she just liked the song and she didn't realize it was describing your relationship with each other.
Well I know that she liked it and has no idea of that. However it still hurt like hell. I don't blame her for enjoying it. I also felt jealous that she was so accepting of the singers situation.
Sometimes we like a song and we don't realize the meaning of it, maybe that's the case.
Interesting take.