The Poem My Ex-Best Friend Will Never See...

[Anonymous]

The Poem My Ex-Best Friend Will Never See...

Intro:

This take is just me venting pieces of my life through a poem to find release, it gives me a peace of mind, I suppose. There is no need for anyone to read it really. It's mainly for myself, and posting it gives me the feeling of liberation. Like I talked to someone about it (I don't have anyone around me that I can talk to about it really) , even if in the end it's myself.

So as always, enjoy or not. Both are welcomed.

(Warning, most of this will be straightforward, I'm not going to do anything fancy with my words for this poem. Everything I feel is blunt. So I'll likely write it that way.)

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You told me you're a believer now. God's your savior...you need saving from me.

I'm no believer in god, I shot myself out of faith long ago. But If I did believe, I'd still wear my sins like jewelry. I don't hide from the dark parts of me. I embrace my light and dark. So no, I don't seek forgiveness, I bled you purposely...

Now you say you don't know me at all, didn't think I could ever do you wrong, but now you think it's what I've done all along. But don't know that you couldn't be more wrong.

I'll allow you to splash your holy water, drink your wine, eat your bread, send a priest...say your prayers for me. Even hate you ever cared for me, but I hurt you so you could be liberated, so you could live.

To unlock your chains to toxicity, let loose your wings; make you boundless.

There was more for you waiting out there than "saving" my family and me.

And yes, there are countless reasons I wish I could still have you here. I will never forget the sacrifices you made for me. But It was time for me to do the same. You had the girl you loved out there waiting for you, your dreams manifesting right before your eyes.

I grew tired of watching you leave it the second things went south on my side of the waters. For most of my life, I was used to destroying lives. I know my crimes. The blood on my hands, the bodies in my closet.

If there really is a hell, I'm sure you are right. I'm likely going. I am not ashamed, nor afraid.

However, despite changing my life around and becoming more than a monster. The girl you got to know.

I had to make the decision to carefully destroy one last person. It was the only way you'd go and live your life without trying to be the hero for my family. You simply wouldn't leave or let go no matter how many times I asked you to.

So I showed you a piece of myself only one person in counting has loved me after seeing, Yet, I am happy every time I hear you are moving on healthily.

I know my face will always haunt your memories. But I know my promise to look after you still stands. You know my number if you ever reach a point where you need something. I wish you well.

[ShesAmerican]

This made me thing of my ex girlfriend for some reason lol. Can’t say what this poem exactly has, I can’t seem to put my finger on it.

But I like it, keep it up

[myTake Owner]

Thank you, appreciate it. And that's interesting, glad you could it had a good effect somehow. I thought it would creep most people out lol

[ShesAmerican]

Sure no problem. And don’t worry about people being creeped out by it, I mean this style of poem is what some people need. Sometimes I get tired of reading soft, heart warming poems or whatever so I don’t mind reading something that has darkness in it

[myTake Owner]

I actually understand that. I grow tired of so many soft and buttery poems too, I find more raw emotions in darker ones as well.

[ShesAmerican]

Do you ever find it hard to express your anger verbally so you write it down and think you’re better at expressing it that way? that’s kinda me now. Sometimes when you wanna say certain things to somebody you once loved but then you either think it’s stupid or end up crumbling and tossing it away lmao

[myTake Owner]

Yeah actually, I'm like that all the time. I write about my feelings more than actually saying them. It is easier because I agree, you do end up feeling like it's silly and end up crumbling it up. I don't know I'm like that as well. I suppose it's the effect of being passionate and creative individuals. You feel so much that just saying it is too weak of a platform to grasp all your emotions and etc lol

[ShesAmerican]

Exactly! but yeah, I guess we think more than we actually speak lmao and I think I prefer it that way

[Prankster13]

This made me think of... Something really bad. Sorry I mean it sounds good. But it's a different kind of dark and I can't like it.

[myTake Owner]

It's fine haha

[Deathraider]

That hit me right at the core.

Beautiful. Most beautiful. Tissue please.

[myTake Owner]

*Hands you tissues while tearing up and sniffling with you* Thank you! Glad you liked it.

[xButterflyKisses87x]

Wow really deep poem right there

[Anonymous]

That's my favorite take

[myTake Owner]

Thank you haha

[VixenRach]

So deep, I'm shook 😭

[SketchForger]

Very interesting, did you do the cover as well?

[myTake Owner]

Yeah, I did. I always do the covers of myTakes. I find it fun, and personal.

[SketchForger]

It's looks alright

[myTake Owner]

Thank you

[Anonymous]

Damn sounds crazy