An Introverted Extrovert

[Anonymous]

I am an oxymoron, an introverted extrovert, or an extroverted introvert. Most of the time I will stay in, but whenever I go out, I become the life of the party. Most people think Im an extrovert based on how i interact with others, but for the most part those interactions are short-lived.

I often find myself feeling sad and lonely due to this. My mum is the same, youd think she's an extrovert due to her social interactions, but in reality, she isn't. Maybe im just like her, or because I grew up with her, I ended up having similar qualities.

I find myself from time to time craving a life that I dont have. One of the popular kids youd see in school, or the extroverted class-clowns at the office. I feel like when I tend to stay at home, it comes with 2 feelings, one of happiness because when I go out, I feel exhausted, and one of loneliness because most of my friends and family are also introverts, and I feel like Im missing out.

As I've gotten older, I've been able to accept this dichotomy, however the fomo or anxiety still lingers. I never seem to truly be happy or content with whatever situation Im in.

[ta-ra]

I think you're normal tbf. I find myself being the same way most days. Truth is people are exhausting now a days and you can only handle them in small quantities at least for me anyway. I like my solitude it gives me peace.