I was diagnosed with severe ADHD about a year ago. But throughout my life I’ve often had moments when I’ll be fixated on something or not paying attention at all. I sometimes say or do something stupid and then realize a moment later why the f*ck did just say/do that? I always apologize or try to correct what I meant to say. But at that point the damage is done.
I know this has costed me dearly in relationships especially in dating. But also it’s a challenge with other day to days interactions as well. I’m not stupid but sometimes my mind races off in weird directions.
Today I accidentally let the cat out of the bag about a surprise that was being planned for my mother. In my mind I had a “feeling” my mother knew about the surprise but she didn’t. It was my sister’s idea for the surprise (family was going to visit a location). But the way things are going during lockdown and given mother doesn’t like visiting unfamiliar places I just saw it being months or longer until she saw it. But the gift idea itself was originally my idea.
Anyway I could of texted my sister before telling my mother about the gift (it’s a memorial plaque for my late grandfather). But my mind just raced ahead and sent pics to my mother and the rest of the family. It was a ADHD moment. I also had in my head that my dad already told her (he tells her everything) but he actually didn’t. I could of took a step back but I didn’t.
Anyway my sister is forgiving and my mother is happy. But I’m frustrated with myself. I have a reputation for (innocuous) flighty behavior which I’m trying to change. But I now know it’s part of my condition. But it’s something I always hated about my mind.
I know this has costed me dearly in relationships especially in dating. But also it’s a challenge with other day to days interactions as well. I’m not stupid but sometimes my mind races off in weird directions.
Today I accidentally let the cat out of the bag about a surprise that was being planned for my mother. In my mind I had a “feeling” my mother knew about the surprise but she didn’t. It was my sister’s idea for the surprise (family was going to visit a location). But the way things are going during lockdown and given mother doesn’t like visiting unfamiliar places I just saw it being months or longer until she saw it. But the gift idea itself was originally my idea.
Anyway I could of texted my sister before telling my mother about the gift (it’s a memorial plaque for my late grandfather). But my mind just raced ahead and sent pics to my mother and the rest of the family. It was a ADHD moment. I also had in my head that my dad already told her (he tells her everything) but he actually didn’t. I could of took a step back but I didn’t.
Anyway my sister is forgiving and my mother is happy. But I’m frustrated with myself. I have a reputation for (innocuous) flighty behavior which I’m trying to change. But I now know it’s part of my condition. But it’s something I always hated about my mind.
