I HATE MY FAMILY WHAT SHOULD I DO?

[Anonymous]

I live with my aunt and I have no other family here ( I moves away from my country ) My parents are somewhere far away. I just hate my aunt soooo much i can't even explain how much and i dont want to explain why and how she treats me. I've been living with her for 5 years now and the way she threats me ( like garbage) started to effect how i see my self. I started to feel like i am a lazy girl who isn’t capable of anything im messy and im gross. Thats how she sees me as.( some p. o. s who is eating her food ) Deep down i know thats not me but its hard to not let it effect me. I dont know what to do I can't move out yet and i can’t afford therapy. Im gonna have to move out soon because i feel like she might kick me out. My parents only can help me so much because of financial stuff Sometimes i even think of becoming a hooker to move out of this place ! but i love my boyfriend. Im stuck here w an abusive person. I am in college and almost graduated but something inside me is keep telling me i dont know if i can find a job even and afford to move out. I need to belive in my self more but she is affecting me so much im just so worried!!! please help and please don’t say that i should talk to her nicely or anything she is a monster

[Rab1901]

That really sucks. I have a friend who hated her uncle like you hate your aunt and for me it was my dad. I'm so glad though that deep down you know it isn't you. It really isn't. Sometimes people just treat people poorly for control and power. Your aunt might even hate herself. At your young age, I'd take action ASAP. In terms of a job look now while you're studying. Learn how to build a good resume because that's very important. Make sure you review it to see that there are no mistakes and surround yourself around positive people. Sometimes it may feel like they just don't get you but trust me it's way better than having negative energy around you all the time. In fact I know someone who was getting therapy because of depression/anxiety and I have been spreading positive energy. He said that I'm too positive and that I don't understand people and that I have no motivation to improve my life. But that's not how real positivity works and I assure you I am someone who hasn't had it that easy. And funny story he and I have a talk just a week later, and he tells me that he takes back what he said about positivity. He says that just saying the word positive makes you feel good. Now aside from the mental state you do gotta keep pushing yourself to get somewhere. Keep looking. Keep applying. Keep patiently WORKing, not waiting. Sometimes it might seem like forever and you might keep getting rejected interview after interview but maybe you won't. And if you do, take it as a lesson and do something differently. Body language is important. Asking questions is important. And if you get the job you want, great! But if you don't and you're really really in need of money and gotta get out, it's not a bad idea to take a job that you don't really want just for the money. Now being a hooker doesn't seem like that would be good because I just don't think the money will make up for your mental health. You could make decent money by being a waitress or bartender especially in a big city. Also you have a boyfriend who you love so feel free to talk to him and tell him honestly how you feel and how you want to improve your life and would appreciate anything he can do to help.

[Nik1hil]

You want to know your core problem..

"You are a liability."

Nobody likes or wants a liability in life..
Google " liability" .

You say you have a boyfriend.. And you love him.. But your life is hell.. So my question is why is he not working to make more money to support you..

Honey in relationship.. If your partners problems can be solved by throwing money at then.. Than find a partner who will do that for you..

If I was you.. I could have very easily turned around my life within 100 days..
I know how to.. It's very easy.. Only difference is I would be willing to pay the price for happiness and you are caught up in morals, principles, love and will. Be surrounded by sadness...

[Anonymous]

If you’re desperate enough to consider prostitution (which is pretty drastic and very desperate) then you’re willing to do whatever you need to so you can get out of your aunts house, right? If so, then your next few months (maybe even a year or longer) is about to be ridiculously hectic. Why? Because I’m about to suggest finding ANY job you can, doesn’t matter the hours (of course not during your school time), you just need the money. Even if it means going straight from school to a long ass graveyard shift. It’s money and it’ll get you out of her home. Once you have the job, look for a roommate. Doesn’t have to be the perfect roommate or the perfect job, these are all temporary things just as a means to escape! Once you’re out, then stay focused, and positive, because it’s going to suck a lot. But there is a silver lining— you’re going to graduate and get the job you want. Then you can afford the living situation that you want. But this is all you can do for now. Otherwise, you’ll have to suck it up until you graduate. But it sounds like the job part is unavoidable, since you’re thinking she may kick you out soon. I am so sorry that you’re in such dire straights right now, but this isn’t forever.

[Asker]

Thank you!

[Tstrbrainer]

Can't you move in with your boyfriend?

Otherwise, just try find any job.
It's a very difficult situation to be in, all the best

[In_Trance]

Stay away from your family

[chris_987]

What that mouth do

[ShadowedSoul]

Get married