How Do You Handle Grief?

So I'm in Australia and I moved interstate to Queensland in 2019 and have been working full-time the last 3 years here. I'm in the process of moving back to Perth. I was able to get full-time work relocation and part-time study and have all that sorted. Things were looking up. In 2021 I lost a dear friend of 10 years to a car accident and it's really only hitting me now. She passed November last year. I didn't get to say goodbye or attend her funeral as all state borders were locked down last year. I'm going to be paying my respects for her when I get back but I'm suddenly filled with grief. Knowing my friend isn't going to be there waiting for me at the airport amongst my other loved ones.
How Do You Handle Grief?
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