Am I wrong for this for always asking for plates?

[Anonymous]

I’m very disconnected from my family as I’m only tolerated not accepted. My free of speech stay getting violated so I don’t have a right to express how I feel. I’m very different than them but I come from a traumatic abusive situation. I call and check on them but I never come over as I’m always called upon when they want something did. I have a family filled with con artists and people who like to do illegal things. Am I wrong for separating myself on events? Today is a birthday and I don’t feel comfortable being around them. I instead send birthday wishes and sometimes money. I also ask for a plate. Am I wrong? I’m only tolerated and not wanted. People watch my mom abuse me and hate me for years. My oldest sister gets treated very differently than me while people clearly show they hate me. Every positive thing I try to do or help gets thrown in the trash. I had to deal with people trying to take my voice away and make their voices justifiable. I don’t attend holiday events or birthday events. I am always helping out and calling to check on them. However I don’t need to be around them to express my love. I am more attracted to keeping my distant. I’m very different than them. I don’t wanna get judged or talk about anymore. My sister always shout “yeah you always want people to do stuff for you”. I don’t and she don’t know what I been through in life. People act like they can treat me anyway and need me. They feel the need to take my voice away. My mom always hated me and hated the fact I was born. She treated my sister better than me. I’m just tired of fully give in to people that allowed abuse and etc happen to me. I’m tired of people trying to control me. I always asked for food and plates because I wasn’t able to feed myself. I am adopted now. I always felt like they were my resources for food and I had to put up with poor treatment. I get tired of people treating me so bad and trying to take my voice away knowing they don’t want me around.

[HollyK21]

Not wrong at all. It’s important to protect your energy at all costs, and if you have to greatly distance or cut people off that are toxic — even family — then do it without hesitation.

[Asker]

Thank you so much!

[Just_Nickky]

You need to get up, go outta your comfort zone and make a better and conducive living for yourself.

[Asker]

Thank you so much! I vibe with people better and they make me feel wanted. I’m a empath and my energy drains around them. I’m not understood by them or anything but they treated me bad but treated me nice in person. I was only tolerated and not wanted. Im in groups and etc.

[Just_Nickky]

Alright 👍😊

[Asker]

Thanks for understanding

[In_Trance]

free speech is getting violated? Smfh

[Asker]

Yes I can’t say anything without it being violated or taken.. I never had a voice growing up anyhow