I don't feel good about myself. I don't think this is the right place to say all this, but I need to let it out along with getting some opinions.
I started at a new school this summer. Thing's were ok until now. I'm irrelevant to people and I have no friends in my own class. I sit alone during lunch while all the girls I used to hang out with and get invited to events with. I don't think their intention was meant in a harmful way as I found a few other friends in other classes in my grade, but now I've drifted from everyone. Even the people I befriended in the other classes don't talk to me anymore, I only have 1 friend at this point. I also think It's because I don't look that good and that I'm short for my age. I really don't fit the school's standards.
People in my class aren't mean to me in any way, but I'm simply not there to them. I miss it when I had a lot of friends. Now I'm insecure. The other people I used to talk to from the other classes always talk to me in a sarcastic tone, and I just feel like they'll switch up once I meet the beauty standards. The only person I'm friends with was kind of in my situation, but since people have known her for longer they are actually socializing with her while I'm just listening.
My social life has become so bad compared to this summer, I used to be popular among the classes as I was able to talk to anyone. I regret changing schools now, but I don't wanna change back to my old one.
The girls in my grade are also so much prettier than me. I hate myself at this point...
I try to engage in conversation, but I just get brushed off. The teachers have noticed I sit alone in class during lunch, but they're probably assuming It's because I have friends in other classes.
The only time someone talks to me is when I can buy food for them or when they want to have food from me.
I just want it to go back to how it was.
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I wish I could say there is an easy answer to this, but there isn't. School is hard, especially when you go from being "popular" to being not "popular." Just remember, you are beautiful, no matter what anybody else says or thinks. I know this sounds like fluff that everybody says and doesn't mean, but it's true. You probably aren't the prettiest girl in your grade, but that doesn't make you ugly and your personality is much more important, especially later in life. Try to make friends, if possible, but if you can't then just focus on improving yourself and become a complete badass that people will be jealous of.
I hope this helped, let me know if you need anything else or just need an ear to talk to.