How to get more confident and motivated to lose weight?

[Anonymous]

I thought I was getting better. I felt super confident and sexy until my father said I look like a cow since I stopped practicing.
I played volleyball, my team was really toxic and the coach was always bodyshaming me even when I was the perfect weight. I couldn't handle it anymore and I quit, I started hating the sport.
I have a big party in June and I ordered a dress, I thought, God, I'll look fabulous but I guess I won't because I'm just getting fatter that's what my friend and father said. I'm more curvy but I wouldn't say fat, what if I got thicker thighs and ass? I like them.
But their opinions affected me to the point I started to starve for days just to lose some pounds. I got so desperate that I wanted to hang myself but I was too scared to do that so i overdosed with all the pills I could find in the house just to end things already but I just got in more pain.
There's really no more point in living if I can't be beautiful and loved, thats what I think

I'm 5'4 and 136 pounds.

[firenine909]

What do you look like? You might not be fat but I can’t tell.


Confident and motivated you have to take it personal. You’re better than your dumb dad and coach, they’re stupid to hate and be mean on you and should regret their comments. Confidence you can see in your body. You’re doing this for yourself and your increased sexiness will make you feel confident

[Asker]

I'm a curvy brunette, if that helps?

[firenine909]

I missed the height and weight, you’re very much cute and hot. They like skinny girls but you’re thick and curvy which makes you more beautiful even if they can’t respect that. You can do cardio to lose weight but you can do squats to have more curve to your figure.

You’re doing this for yourself remember. This is to make yourself feel good. You’re not doing it to please them. Ignore your father and your coach they only mean to hurt you with their words

[Asker]

Thank you. I really want to work but I can't find either time or motivation with all the studies I have recently and the exams. Maybe these are just excuses but I'm really drained after studying and I just want to sleep all day to be honest.

[firenine909]

You can get up in the early morning or late at night. Look at yourself in the mirror. Your curves and your butt and realize that many men will find your appearance sexy

Easier to do things in the morning if you’re tired. Take a nap after you work out. It might be hard but it’s so rewarding but I want you to keep fighting and realize there’s a lot of good you can get out of it

[laly520]

keep track of it

take a picture of urself n compare each period of time