So, what now? Where do I go from here?

[QuestioninLiffee]

I have gone through the worst year of my life...

​The short list of my struggles include

- Severe mental breakdown that led to an arrest

- Loss of friends and family

- Admittance to mental facility

- Spent some time in jail

- Diagnosed with at least 6 different disorders

​- Severe humiliation because of my actions

- Loss of respect in the eyes of many

- Forced Paid Leave due to instability

- Forced to live with my mother due to losing a restraining order case

etc etc

In the process, I recognize I am totally alone, no friends..

Not sure what to do anymore?

[ohsheeT]

It's probably time to change if you don't like where you've been get on another pat

Quit thinking about yourself and think about others

All the things that you listed it was a choice you chose to take that first step into that situation so before the situation even starts think about it and either back up or turn to the right or turn to the left you don't need to go to those places

But it kind of sounds like there's something inside of you that you like about it otherwise you wouldn't go there

And if you do things because you want to be seen in a different light or you want people to think that you're different kind of person


Well you're right they do it's just not the person that you were hoping that they were going to see you as

One day you'll come to you I mean the moment you got done with that list you should have reread it and just said WTF am I doing

When you were born when I was born when everybody was born we all got a gift that gift is choice we get to choose who we want to be in life by the things that we say and that we do

So with that you have to understand everything that you've done has been your choice and you can't blame anybody else because you're the only person on the inside of you that controls you nobody else

When you want to step forward your brain tells you step forward when you want to say something your brain tells your mouth to say it when you want to do something you just do it without thinking about it I guess

The best part about all this is by writing it down and putting it out here for everybody to see you have it now just acknowledged that you are somebody that you don't want to be so now it's your choice to change it and become the person that you want to be

I can tell you this with all that everything on that list says you might as well acknowledge this too it's going to be hard and if you can accept that and understand that

And then understand that you have a choice and you don't have to make the worst choice or even a bad choice you have to make the choice to be a different person and once again you're the only one that can do that nobody else can because you're the only person on the inside of you controlling you

[Anonymous]

You got to stay on your medication and just work on yourself for now. It sucks, but a lot of people lose their family and friends because they are Bi-Polar or whatever they are. When you first get your mental disorder it's hard to control and it can lead to some embarrassing moments. But you have to remember you are not alone in this many people went through the same things as you.

Try to see what you can do in getting your record expunged. Again a lot of people with mental disorders burnt a lot of bridges witht the people who were close to them. Like girlfriends wives etc. The whole thing now is you know you got to stay on your medication and not do that again.

I am not mentally ill, but I've seen people improve dramatically over times. It's you're young so the symptoms are a lot more overwhelming. And remember you're not alone there are other people that go through similar things.

Just stay on your medication talk to your doctor, see if you can get your record expunged. And do what you got to.