How long have you stayed strong until you broke down?

[Anonymous]

I’m mentally exhausted and drained. Not from work or social life. I’ve lost so much family members this year that I’m almost becoming numb to it all. I’m like the middle child/middle cousin I guess but I have to bury my emotions and keep it together for the sake of everyone else in my family. I don't know how many more family I can bury before I completely fall apart. I don't know what to do. I’m literally inches from my breaking point. And I don't know if i can recover from this. Does anyone have any advice on how to handle something like this?

[MannMitAntworten]

I have no family left to lay to rest. Lost both parents within a year and my last Grandparent a couple years prior. It is surreal. Still even with having lived what you are going through there really is not a piece of advice I can point to that makes things bearable aside from, it does help having decent friends around who clearly give a damn. Still, even they are passing or losing members of their own families too. The cracking is going to happen and it can come from no where or it can be triggered even from happy memories. You just ride the wave until it passes. It really is all you can do. I can’t speak towards grief counseling. Never tried it. Mostly because of schedule conflicts at work … and I work a bit far from home. I do know it is better not to isolate yourself as you will get stuck in your head. Not good. Not good at all. Avoid it as much as possible. I wish I could tell you something helpful but that is all I have.