My dad has always been a loving father. Until now. I understand that he's busy, since he has two demanding jobs and he's in a play. But lately he has acted like he doesn't care about me and has just pretending my whole life.
when I choked last week, he was not even a foot away from me looking at his lines and didn't even look up. My mom from the other room yelled "Are you okay?" I replied "I'm fine, thanks." while glaring at him.
And when my mom left the room and said "I'm going to go watch T.V. You two spend some time together." he didn't even say anything! Just kept playing solitaire on his I phone.
before he stayed in Vegas for three months for NLP training he was a fun loving involved daddy, after less. A dad. Now more like father.
My mom makes excuses for him and says that he loves me. I don't believe her. Now it just seems like he is trying to buy me back into the 'matrix' (if you're a geek you'll get that.)
Today was my graduation, I don't know why he came. I didn't want him there. He rescheduled a client to be there. He should've kept the appointment. He bought me a cheap basket and got it cheap because a friend of his made it. My mom says the woman called her to ask what I liked. She obviously barely paid any attention, because my mom knows me. I would use like two things in this basket of like ten. He bought me baseball tickets (I love baseball, the only one in the family who does.) another cheap gift, because he has connections.
When he was in Vegas I thought he was cheating on my mom, it was the worst three months of my life. It's my worst memory. Now my memories with him are shattered. I used to look up to him, now he nothing more than man that keeps hurting me, the man that comes home late every night, the man that keeps trying to be in my life, when I'm not worth it. The man who is the reason I've cried almost every day for the last week or two.
when I choked last week, he was not even a foot away from me looking at his lines and didn't even look up. My mom from the other room yelled "Are you okay?" I replied "I'm fine, thanks." while glaring at him.
And when my mom left the room and said "I'm going to go watch T.V. You two spend some time together." he didn't even say anything! Just kept playing solitaire on his I phone.
before he stayed in Vegas for three months for NLP training he was a fun loving involved daddy, after less. A dad. Now more like father.
My mom makes excuses for him and says that he loves me. I don't believe her. Now it just seems like he is trying to buy me back into the 'matrix' (if you're a geek you'll get that.)
Today was my graduation, I don't know why he came. I didn't want him there. He rescheduled a client to be there. He should've kept the appointment. He bought me a cheap basket and got it cheap because a friend of his made it. My mom says the woman called her to ask what I liked. She obviously barely paid any attention, because my mom knows me. I would use like two things in this basket of like ten. He bought me baseball tickets (I love baseball, the only one in the family who does.) another cheap gift, because he has connections.
When he was in Vegas I thought he was cheating on my mom, it was the worst three months of my life. It's my worst memory. Now my memories with him are shattered. I used to look up to him, now he nothing more than man that keeps hurting me, the man that comes home late every night, the man that keeps trying to be in my life, when I'm not worth it. The man who is the reason I've cried almost every day for the last week or two.
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Thanks guys, totally put into perspective. :)
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