Questions: Family & Friends

Somehow being around couples, especially my friends feel so... different. It kinda makes me want to throw up but it's also fun to watch people you thought you knew becoming totally different people when they're with their SO.

Do you get this uncomfortable feeling too? How to deal with this, cause I don't wanna disturb my friends' moments lol?

I was bullied a lot in middle school and was frequently given the advice to "ignore your bullies, and they'll leave you alone." Who did this work for??? I often thought, do these adults think that I am purposefully going and finding my bullies and trying to interact with them in anyway...they're bullies! Clearly I had no desire to be around them and tried to avoid them in every way. How do you ignore someone you have all your classes with, or that rides your same bus, or potentially lives in your neighborhood, and now days, has social media?

I’m 18 and since I was a little girl my mother’s little brother was always here for me while my dad was more focused on his career. My uncle was a student when I was a child but he taught me how to read, to swim, to ride a bike, and he bought me my first iPhone when he started his business, my mom even told me that he changed my diapers more than her and he even take me sometimes on trips when he can. He’s only 17 years older than me but I feel that he was more present on my life than my father. And I still remember that he was the only one that used to read me some fairy tails while my parents never did that. Even If he was handsome and popular he always preferred to spend time with me, to teach me new things instead of partying with his friends in college. When I was asked who I love more after my mother I accidentally said my uncle and I felt bad because I thought that I should love my dad more, even if he was absent but I noticed that my uncle was more here for me than him. Isn’t it weird?

I notice that my circle of friends is mostly with guys, and they're alright, but I really want my own circle of female friends, but it's so difficult to connect I think. What about you?